When I got the news I was obviously in a state of shock. How could this happen? My life was everything I wanted and now it wasn’t and I couldn’t do a thing about it. I know it sounds silly, but my first thing I did was take off my mascara I had just applied. It was the one thing I could control in that moment. Another thing I could control is what I was wearing. Sure I may have grabbed what I wore after work the night before (a cute lounge outfit with tieks) but it felt like me. I needed to grab on to anything I could that felt like me because my world was just shattered.