4 days after Eddie died I had a doctors appointment I couldn’t reschedule. This was the first time I couldn’t check married. It was too new to check widowed, so I sat there and cried. How had my life changed all of a sudden like this? It wasn’t fair! Checking the widowed box at 38? That little word tossed me into reality and spit me out in pieces. That word was a constant reminder that my life was totally different. Different than what it was, what it was supposed to be and what everyone else around me had that I didn’t anymore. I was labeled a widow. In the reality of boxes, I was no longer married. My heart was even more broken than it was before. This was real.
Loss and Lashes 