This was something my friends and I talked about a lot right after Eddie died. Truth is (and I know you know this) there’s no manual for what the hell to do when your husband dies suddenly. I asked things like was it ok to look “pretty” and wear makeup? When do I “have to” stop wearing my wedding rings? Will I ever love again? Will I feel normal? The amount of things I had to think about and answer in a matter of days was insane. All of a sudden everyone knew every deep dark secret and I was more vulnerable than ever.