Today my head felt dizzy and fuzzy. If this was 4 weeks ago, I’d be 99.9% convinced I had a brain tumor, I know that’s not the case. My life is in slow motion, reliving all of these moments and memories of life with Eddie. What it was, what it was supposed to be. Even the grocery store, where I contemplated a rotissorie chicken wondering who would actually eat the legs now. I went back and forth with that damn chicken for about five minutes. People probably just thought I was crazy, but to me it was one more reminder that he was gone and my life was totally different. That chicken just raised a bunch of questions and brought up memories of dinners with it, which at the time seemed like nothing, but today I would give anything for those moments back. I finally just got the chicken because I still needed to make dinner and actually feed the kids something other than Halloween candy. Everything has changed in my life, but yet everything is still exactly how it was, minus one.