Today was an okay day. As I sat here and thought about it, I realized that pretty much everything I did today was for me… not Eddie. That’s the first time that this has happened, in a long time.

My room was finished getting painted. It’s now a light grey with crisp white trim. A fresh look from the beige that was there. As soon as the paint dried, I put on the new Lilly Pulitzer duvet. It was starting to feel like me… you know I love my Lilly. With the gold pillows, over priced gold bow chair and chandelier table lamps, the room was not ours anymore, but mine. It doesn’t mean that I missed him any less, but I was moving forward.

Today, I didn’t cry.

Today, I accepted the different, that was now my life and was even a little optimistic for the future.

Today was okay and although tomorrow may suck, today gave promise of better days to come.