Well, I finally did it. After a few weeks of me changing little things I wanted in the new car, I made up my mind. I wasn’t about to settle. The dealer found the last one in the northeast with everything on my list.
It wasn’t all rainbows this week though… I couldn’t find my title on Thursday night, which I didn’t even realize I needed. I know that sounds silly, but I’ve never done this by myself so I didn’t even think about it. After almost having a nervous breakdown and my dad about to click submit on the DMV site, getting a new title for Saturday, my mom found it between papers. Thank God.
Today as I was on my way to get the car, I got a call from the dealer that my registration expired yesterday. I’m always on top of things, but nothing had been sent to me and it slipped my mind. There was nothing they could do except give me new plates. One more change…I was losing the plates I had since I bought my first car. Somehow it was okay though, it was a fresh start.
I wasn’t sure how it would be to drive the jeep for the last time, but I was better than I thought I’d be. I was ready.
For a moment, I questioned the change… but that was short lived. They brought me back to the maintenance area to see my car. It was being detailed, but they let me sit in it and check it out. When it was turned on for the first time, Tom Petty’s “Won’t Back Down” played. It was Eddie’s song. He was reminding me that I got this and giving me that push I needed to move forward.
Last year March 13th was the last day schools were open and everything changed in the world and my personal life. This year March 13th signifies a fresh start… something amazing and new for me.
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I was one of Eddie’s friends from High school! I have been following along in your journey by reading your blog. You are an amazing writer and I find myself near tears and smiling with every post. Although I had not seen or talked to Eddie since HS, you capture him SO well and that is what makes me smile. He was one of the best people I knew in High School and one that I have many memories of. The picture of the Tom Petty song that was on the radio really brought back memories of hanging out with him and other friends in HS. Thank you for writing this blog. Your boys are very lucky to have you and your strength guiding them.
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Thank you so much for saying that ❤️
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I can’t believe that song was playing at that moment! Every time I hear it, I think of Eddie. Love to you, Maran.
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I also remember buying my first car alone, after your Uncle David died, and it was quite the process for me also. Interestingly, you wrote about all of this on your late Uncle David’s birthday. He would have been 73 on 3/13/21.
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