No matter how far I’ve come, some days I’m just plain mad.

Mad that my life is so different than it was a year ago.

Mad that I didn’t see Eddie deteriorating in front of me.

Mad that I couldn’t help him.

Mad that he left his boys.

Mad that he didn’t get help.

Mad that some friendships have faded.

Mad that some people don’t get it.

Mad that there are still so many messes to clean up.

Mad that I have to pick up the pieces.

Mad that some days no matter how much love and happiness I have around me I’m still in a mood that I can’t shake.

Some days the anger takes over and makes me bitter. Those days cloud my judgement and I can’t see all the good that I have in front of me. Thank

On those days I’m a lot.

Thank you so everyone that has stuck by me and continues to… especially on the mad days. I love you.